Full moon

Moon study.Today is full moon.For the past 2-3 days I've been feeling like shit. I don't remember when I felt like this last time. I wonder is it because of the moon. Fortunately I broke out of it.

Here's a tip for next time:
- Be in the body, sense with skin.
- Find place with high energy (nature? friendly ppl?)
- Don't do musts and shoulds, be natural, do no-thing

Quotes and voice

UNDERSTAND

Understand the need. Unerstand the effort. The conclusion can only be its futility.

Mystery to Spoon:We are all trapped by our humanity. I have the same amount of fear as you do. You're not a special snowflake.

"ANYTHING that you can't say NO to, is your MASTER. And YOU are it's SLAVE." -V.U.

Pook: "Don't try to be masculine but try to be who you are."

Primasounds:"With perseverance, guidance and instruction, it may eventually come, but it cannot be rushed. Its not really a matter of trying hard either, for it comes in letting go."

"As the Greek philosopher Heraclitus said thousands of years ago: All is flow. Nothing remains the same. You can never step into the same river twice."

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I've watched some videos of myself and I see that everything visual is in tact. I am commiting myself to better my voice. I know that I have the ability but I don't have the habits.The way I will do this is the 2 second pause for thought before speaking. This is the hardest thing but I will fight!

Level up

I haven't written about my past experiences. I was on a road trip. Everything seems to fall in place. I am finally a man, I have little weaknesses, I feel and act like a man,Girls just see me as some kind of god. I know it, they know it. No nervousness. Talking to people became spontaneous. I think I finally discovered how to do it. Just don't do it yourself. You are not in charge of the doing. Just do your chakras, let go of need and be spontaneous.I still cant find a girlfriend. I have stated it that I want one. It's probably just a matter of time, because I feel so unbelievable. It's like finally I have testosterone pumping through me. I want to pick up a fight with every man I encounter and I want to cherish every female I fancy.Funny thing is I haven't weight lifted for 2 weeks now. The other thing is I haven't watched porn or mastrubated in this time. I was gonna but I suspect this has smething to do with the high T level. Maybe something will snap in my brain when it sees there is no relief now.Another thing I think I have to attribute success to Hypnoticas approach cd.Another thing is probably working constantly on my throught chakras and tension feelings. They are not fully open yet, especially in the back.Another thing is probably my anima visualizations which I did a couple weeks ago. Couple days ago I had very intense visualizations when I was in a lucid dream. I want to do this today instead of masturbating.

Helplesness will help you

More info on it IS a pull:

Rion Williams:
Just see her as tasty bait if you want (I think you know what I mean). Womenwill cringe at this thought but it’s really about ‘starting’ the natural sexual a??raction process with her because you do have a lot of value you can offer her.\\

PJE:
Remember, you cannot lie to your Guardian. It is not your words that count, but your honest assessment of the situation.

OSHO:
"In your hopelessness is the only hope, and in your desirelessness is your only fulfillment, and in your tremendous helplessness suddenly the whole existence starts helping you."

Cool blog:

"http://30sleeps.com/blog/2007/07/29/the-joy-of-living-dangerously/"
The way to deal with fear is to allow it. If you find yourself incredibly nervous at the idea of saying hi to someone you don’t know, stop trying to eliminate the anxiety, and instead train yourself to take action in spite of it. When you shine your attention on negative thought patterns, and allow them to be, they lose their power to take hold of and control you, and they ultimately evaporate.

But even pushing through fear can be tough if you normally live within your comfort zone. To break out of this rut, start small. Motivation follows action. Here are some examples of how to smallchunk your way to a becoming a risk-taker, and experience the joy of living dangerously:Talk to one stranger a day. When you make a habit of talking to strangers you meet lots of new people, increase your social intelligence, and fully engage yourself in the world around you. The best way to meet the girl of your dreams is to walk up to her and say “Hi”."