It IS a pull

I could say that my recent experiences are just because this is like a cycle of good and then bad. But I'd like to think this is because I have been working daily on my chakras for the past 3 weeks and focusing on being in the moment. Meeting people is so easy once you get no bullshit from your brain.

PJE describes it perfectly what I'm doing in his new posts:
"It seems I ran afoul of my own good intentions once again. I started pushing myself, instead of letting myself be pulled. I started thinking about all the things I "should" do, instead of thinking of them done."

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I'd forget about the most important thing. It is like another big mindshift. I look back at posts a week ago and I see I didn't get it.
I finally accepted that I really want a girlfriend. All my going out, selfimproving, whatever, is just because I want to share intimacy with a female person. I want this badly but I always shoved it behind. I realized this like a year ago but then I forgot once I got some success. The Ego once again got in the way and said I want to pick-up girls , have tons of them! Bullshit I just want a girlfriend, and everytime I go out this is what I want. I have confessed this to myself and I see my brain rewiring because it is starting to work for me once I acknowledged what I really want. Things are starting to happen.

Joruneying

OK I've had some wild experiences with the lowerworld.I don't think I actually got there but I learned how to make myself lucid dream while completely awake. I create dreams out of thin air.I used this to connect with my anima. The results are spectacular. Last night I opened my chakras. I discovered there are back chakras which are responsible for recieving. Wow! Why didn't anyone tell me about this! I feel awesome right now. I had a dream last night with a girl named Cz., it was so real, I had the most intense orgasm ever during it.

Love is all around us

Huna:

1. The World Is What You Think It Is.
2. There are no limits.
3. Energy Flows Where Attention Goes.
4. Now Is The Moment Of Power.
5. To Love Is To Be Happy With (someone or something).
6. All Power Comes From Within.
7. Effectiveness Is The Measure Of Truth.

So simple, so true.

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Ideagasms:

"all people who place money ahead of contribution are not to be trusted"

"With this list in mind, when I approach women, I am not trying to pass
their tests, I am seeing if THEY can pass MINE. I don't actually do any
deliberate "tests" by being unpleasant on purpose, I just chat with them
like a normal human being and FEEL THEIR ENERGY."

"It's time to move beyond thinking with our dicks. FEAR means you think
with your dick. I recommend bringing your consciousness back up to where
it always belonged, in the Heart. This is what being a man is IMO. The
dick must come in SECOND."

"There is no need to worry or even think about attraction anymore. You
see, NATURAL CHARM is already inside every human being, the moment their
Heart begins to open wide. It is already encoded into your DNA.
Attraction happens NATURALLY when you are standing in intengrity,
compassion, and holding true to your values such as humor, honesty,
respect, etc."

OSHO:

"Love is hidden inside human beings; it only needs to be released. The
question is not how to produce it, but only how to uncover it. There is
something that we have covered ourselves with that does not allow love
to surface."

"The problem is not how to cultivate love, but how to investigate and
find out why love is not able to manifest itself. What is the hindrance?
What is the difficulty? Where is the barrier?"

"No barrier of nature is really a barrier, that is why a river reaches
the ocean: cutting through the mountains it reaches the ocean."

"What are the man-made obstacles that we have contrived? The first thing
is that up until now, all of human culture has been against sex, against
passion."

"we never even give it a thought that it is sexual energy that
ultimately transforms and transmutes into love. The evolution of love is
nothing but transformed sex energy."we never even give it a thought that it is sexual energy that ultimately transforms and transmutes into love. The evolution of love is nothing
but transformed sex energy."

If you don't approach, you will die.

Use the force

Yesterday was an interesting day at a club.I was doing chakras and journeying for the past days and I felt really clear. Also two days earlier I listened to the confidence hypnosis tape. The tapes are just fucken it. Whenever I don't listen to them I just go down. They ARE REAL LISTEN TO THEM!!!

So my goal was to kiss a girl. I did it on the dance floor. It IS a push.Remember that post by Killswitch, all is in there. Follow your gut instincts and your heart. All else even the penis are unimportant. Use the penis as a force to pull you. Use your heart to guide you. Use the void or gut to push you into the girl. It is all what YOU want. Use the force. Itcan only be used if my thoughts are not working. They weren't really working yesterday and so I did it. Also I did a lot of sensing femininity around me, I was in love with myself and firls dancing. They noticed it and flocked around.

Technique for 2 girls dancing: grab them both.

Technique for 1 girl: push. She doesn;t know what she is doing or what she wants, she rejects you because that is the default response, override it by becoming awed at her beauty. But she must be attracted to you, for this to work.

The Way of the Shaman

"most important is that you must have no fear. If you see something frightening, you must not flee. You must run up and touch it"
"You must do that or one day soon you will die"
"Success in journeying and seeing depends on an attitude that lies between trying too hard and not trying hard enough"
Today will be my first lowerworld experience.

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Log:
It was really easy to get into trance. I used shamanic drums playing behind my head.I didn't have any clear visions at all. But I see there is something there to be seen, it must be a matter of technique to break to that.One interesting thing is that once out of nowhere a white mandala showed. It was really unique. I tried flying into it but all my attempts failed as if I couldn't do it by forcing myself.

All the things

All the things I have in life, I have achieved by small steps.
All the things I don't have in life, I want them now and I'm not willing to make a single step.

Chakras!

"What you can do in this state (actually I don't want to call this a state, what I am right now, writing this, is a state, that one feels more natural, not like a state of mind but more as just what I am, an animal without any state bullshit),"
In that sentence I wrote in Biological Mutation lies the secret to getting rid of Form. I will write about it.

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I got back to feeling awesome. It's all related to chakras. I reread my article Introduction to the mind at work and it all clicked after a few days. I opened up my cock chakra. The thing is I don't have enough tools to do this effectively. Awareness doesn't seem to be the only thing. I opened the sacral chakra spontaneously. I might try something. I think you have to occupy your mind with something like reading, or mantras and then do the releasing.
I went out to a club yesterday, there were no chicks I digged. But I was feeling really great and did a couple courages. My new technique is chunk it down. Or do your best. And of course feeling pleasant in my chakras.

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I got back from a toastmasters meeting. Chakras are awesome. Work on them!