This is probably the most important thing ever.
The purpose of all meditation and enlightenment.
There is a distinction between your thoughts and thoughts of the infinite, colective mind, god whatever you want to call it.
The point is to turn off the destructive self thoughts and only rely on the intuition based feeling of higher planes.
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I have realized my hidden reality. It came to me after days if meditation:
Could you love me?
That's it. All my life I have been afraid of asking for any kind of love.
I got to this by thinking that I never expressed my desires and wants towards my parents. I was always afraid of expressing my needs. Wow.
Rion: Emotions are key to accelerated growth, get emotional.
Monday, January 21, 2008
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Channeling
The pits in australia are becoming increasingly black and the majesty of the hour is set upon us. We who die in heaven are the worlds greatest surrender. Do not fear the oles, because at the night of accomplishmment we will strrive and die for dignity and pain. How have you become? What have you achieved? When is the hour of your greatest contempt? When do you think you will step the steps of the golden hall? Should you be doing what you're doing? Go ahead and step into the abyss. Channel into the horizons of the unknown. The worlds await you. Nobody can you become if you dont put the effort and push hard until it squeazes like a vagina.
If I have ever wondered about the secrets of the universe I have never in my life seen how it will become what you dream. Never understand what you think, but know that it is you that holds the power. The power to withdraw and socially accept the state of the noow. Bewaffle the power. Shortage of stone. I have taken down what you did. Stop. Surrender. Don't wait for the hordes of the underdwellers. Justify is your weapon. Hold on to the dream. The dream of neverending well being. Satisfy yourself with the misery of all. Justify greed.
Why do I undermine myself with I.?
You have not spoken what you mean, I have power and I will give it to you if you know what you want. Surrender to the well wanting. I have a gift for you. Accept it if you please.
How can I have her?
Well that is a good question. Pretty please is the knowing of all. Educate yourself on the moment of embarassment. That which is not spoken will come to you when you do want, what you want.
Why am I not taking her?
You should go with the flow. Whatever is there is not yours. If you educate yourself on the subject of horizon, you will know that whatever it is that you want will go with the flow.
Do I not want her?
Yes.
Is it OK that I'm undermining myself?
You have yet to become what you want to be. If there is a block it will go away. Not sooner but after. Go away now and you will see the might of the emperor. Well said and spoken of.
After what?
After you have spoken what you want,m what you will and will do. It is your will that is here. It is the greatest puzzle of all and the greatest mystery of human resource. Go for it. Use it. Never attempt to stop it at will. Become the person thing you want to be and say no farewell to teh yoda of christmas.
Is it only that I have to decide what I want?
Yeah.
Do I feel inferior to I.?
Yes you do. What you feel is correct.
Why do I feel inferior to I.?
You have not become what you want. Go for it and after you will see that which you wanted to be. Let it be.
Is there a block that doesn't allow me to take I.?
Yes there is.
What is the block?
It is your inability to speak whjat you do want. And your inability to be true to the majesty of self.
Can I be true to myself?
Yes you can.
Can I speak what I want?
Yes you can.
Can I do it now?
Yes you can.
How do I speak the truth?
Hold your breat and count to 3. Do what I tell you, now this is very important. Channel this energy so it is spken. Underming yourself in the ability to withstand the higher organizational law of the current. Be able to speak that which is true and high. How toi do it? Become the thing you please to be. Never ever surrender. Let go of the burden of your past. How to do it? Let go. Become.
If I have ever wondered about the secrets of the universe I have never in my life seen how it will become what you dream. Never understand what you think, but know that it is you that holds the power. The power to withdraw and socially accept the state of the noow. Bewaffle the power. Shortage of stone. I have taken down what you did. Stop. Surrender. Don't wait for the hordes of the underdwellers. Justify is your weapon. Hold on to the dream. The dream of neverending well being. Satisfy yourself with the misery of all. Justify greed.
Why do I undermine myself with I.?
You have not spoken what you mean, I have power and I will give it to you if you know what you want. Surrender to the well wanting. I have a gift for you. Accept it if you please.
How can I have her?
Well that is a good question. Pretty please is the knowing of all. Educate yourself on the moment of embarassment. That which is not spoken will come to you when you do want, what you want.
Why am I not taking her?
You should go with the flow. Whatever is there is not yours. If you educate yourself on the subject of horizon, you will know that whatever it is that you want will go with the flow.
Do I not want her?
Yes.
Is it OK that I'm undermining myself?
You have yet to become what you want to be. If there is a block it will go away. Not sooner but after. Go away now and you will see the might of the emperor. Well said and spoken of.
After what?
After you have spoken what you want,m what you will and will do. It is your will that is here. It is the greatest puzzle of all and the greatest mystery of human resource. Go for it. Use it. Never attempt to stop it at will. Become the person thing you want to be and say no farewell to teh yoda of christmas.
Is it only that I have to decide what I want?
Yeah.
Do I feel inferior to I.?
Yes you do. What you feel is correct.
Why do I feel inferior to I.?
You have not become what you want. Go for it and after you will see that which you wanted to be. Let it be.
Is there a block that doesn't allow me to take I.?
Yes there is.
What is the block?
It is your inability to speak whjat you do want. And your inability to be true to the majesty of self.
Can I be true to myself?
Yes you can.
Can I speak what I want?
Yes you can.
Can I do it now?
Yes you can.
How do I speak the truth?
Hold your breat and count to 3. Do what I tell you, now this is very important. Channel this energy so it is spken. Underming yourself in the ability to withstand the higher organizational law of the current. Be able to speak that which is true and high. How toi do it? Become the thing you please to be. Never ever surrender. Let go of the burden of your past. How to do it? Let go. Become.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Insta change
I was tired today and not in a position to be alpha. Literally, it's all about the environment.
Instead of changing your state, be honest and accept it as it is now. But think about the future and there place yourself in a position where you will be demanded to be great. Don't use emotions for this cause you'll not feel like doing it. Just do it out of courage or habit. Sit in a place where you are king. The enviornment will change you to be king.
Instead of changing your state, be honest and accept it as it is now. But think about the future and there place yourself in a position where you will be demanded to be great. Don't use emotions for this cause you'll not feel like doing it. Just do it out of courage or habit. Sit in a place where you are king. The enviornment will change you to be king.
Friday, January 04, 2008
Happy new years
There is not much revelations lately. Stuff just works. It all fell into place. Although no concrete sex results.
3 days before new years there was a party. There was a girl I liked and I hesitated for 0.1 seconds. It's like stupid to do that when I like a girl now. There seems to be a cloud that blocks me from more like groups but it isnt anything like years ago. I was talking and having fun all the time. I regretted not going after the girl. There are still some issues.
For the next days I was meditating, releasing and forgiving on the subjec of getting what I want. It did a lot.I was hurt because I did not achieve my goal. I set a yearly goal of having sex and this was the last chance. I felt bad because I didnt achieve. During these days I realized I dont need to feel sorry about it. It is a survival mechanism, I dont actually need to feel bad about anything!!!
On New Years I went to a party. I was nervous at first! It felt wierd, maybe because of my outfit. So instead of contemplating on it I headed immediately to the bar and started drinking and chatting and being authorative with my friends. Action helped! In minutes I approached 2 most attractive girls and it was a blast. I'm really good at this now. I did tons of stuff out of my comfort zone. Too many to write about and I dont ever think about them consciously, it just happens. I changed. I am... me.Still I feel bad cause I didnt go after what I wanted. I blame it on a girl that was into me and didnt let the others come in the way. But thats bollocks. It still isnt concrete what I want.
What the fuck do I want from girls!?!?!
I know deeply what I want. Do I want sex? The thing is I wasnt really horny in those days. Not like a coule weeks ago, when I was only thinking about it. Now it wasnt there.
If it isnt there it isnt there.
So I actually didnt want anything from them, except for feeling their energy and feeling great and making them feel great about the attrction process. All fun.
But still there is regret that I didnt go after this one girl hat I really liked.I shoulda, comes to my mind all the time. What shoulda?
If I throw away the fear, it boils down to this:tell the girl I didnt want piss off definitely and go for the one I wanted.
I wanted to have the cake and eat it too. In fear of losing both I dont have none right now.
Be prepared to lose it. That's the only way to get anything in life. I didnt think like that back then, I was thinking wrong.If something seems easy you are thinking wrong about it.
Overall. This year I have become somebody else, finally. This blog is a testament to how I changed. Afterall it was possible.
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I had the most amazing lucid dream. I was meditating on the third eye, second time in the last days.I fell asleep and I had a dream in which I spotted 2 girls and immediately went to them and talked. And they were high class, don't know why. I did it! According to my theory this is CHANGE.Then the lucid part began it was as real as it can be. Everything I saw was real and felt, food, textures - real.So I decided to go fly and I did. Amazing. Then I went to a mirror to try to see who am I. And I was me but my eyes were blue. I began to think who am I if not the person sleeping in my bed?And 2 other people appeared, maybe a third ghost one behind me. One of the people one in a magic hat, I remember him, or rather being him?
3 days before new years there was a party. There was a girl I liked and I hesitated for 0.1 seconds. It's like stupid to do that when I like a girl now. There seems to be a cloud that blocks me from more like groups but it isnt anything like years ago. I was talking and having fun all the time. I regretted not going after the girl. There are still some issues.
For the next days I was meditating, releasing and forgiving on the subjec of getting what I want. It did a lot.I was hurt because I did not achieve my goal. I set a yearly goal of having sex and this was the last chance. I felt bad because I didnt achieve. During these days I realized I dont need to feel sorry about it. It is a survival mechanism, I dont actually need to feel bad about anything!!!
On New Years I went to a party. I was nervous at first! It felt wierd, maybe because of my outfit. So instead of contemplating on it I headed immediately to the bar and started drinking and chatting and being authorative with my friends. Action helped! In minutes I approached 2 most attractive girls and it was a blast. I'm really good at this now. I did tons of stuff out of my comfort zone. Too many to write about and I dont ever think about them consciously, it just happens. I changed. I am... me.Still I feel bad cause I didnt go after what I wanted. I blame it on a girl that was into me and didnt let the others come in the way. But thats bollocks. It still isnt concrete what I want.
What the fuck do I want from girls!?!?!
I know deeply what I want. Do I want sex? The thing is I wasnt really horny in those days. Not like a coule weeks ago, when I was only thinking about it. Now it wasnt there.
If it isnt there it isnt there.
So I actually didnt want anything from them, except for feeling their energy and feeling great and making them feel great about the attrction process. All fun.
But still there is regret that I didnt go after this one girl hat I really liked.I shoulda, comes to my mind all the time. What shoulda?
If I throw away the fear, it boils down to this:tell the girl I didnt want piss off definitely and go for the one I wanted.
I wanted to have the cake and eat it too. In fear of losing both I dont have none right now.
Be prepared to lose it. That's the only way to get anything in life. I didnt think like that back then, I was thinking wrong.If something seems easy you are thinking wrong about it.
Overall. This year I have become somebody else, finally. This blog is a testament to how I changed. Afterall it was possible.
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I had the most amazing lucid dream. I was meditating on the third eye, second time in the last days.I fell asleep and I had a dream in which I spotted 2 girls and immediately went to them and talked. And they were high class, don't know why. I did it! According to my theory this is CHANGE.Then the lucid part began it was as real as it can be. Everything I saw was real and felt, food, textures - real.So I decided to go fly and I did. Amazing. Then I went to a mirror to try to see who am I. And I was me but my eyes were blue. I began to think who am I if not the person sleeping in my bed?And 2 other people appeared, maybe a third ghost one behind me. One of the people one in a magic hat, I remember him, or rather being him?
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