I am the walrus, I am the egg-man

"What you can do in this state (actually I don't want to call this a state, what I am right now, writing this, is a state, that one feels more natural, not like a state of mind but more as just what I am, an animal without any state bullshit),"
In that sentence I wrote in Biological Mutation lies the secret to getting rid of Form. I will write about it.

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I got back to feeling awesome. It's all related to chakras. I reread my article Introduction to the mind at work and it all clicked after a few days. I opened up my cock chakra. The thing is I don't have enough tools to do this effectively. Awareness doesn't seem to be the only thing. I opened the sacral chakra spontaneously. I might try something. I think you have to occupy your mind with something like reading, or mantras and then do the releasing.
I went out to a club yesterday, there were no chicks I digged. But I was feeling really great and did a couple courages. My new technique is chunk it down. Or do your best. And of course feeling pleasant in my chakras.

Be cool about it

I got out today out of frustration to approach 10 girls. I used every
trick in the book. I failed.I realized why.I was thinking.
The problem is I am administering the process. I want to approach
myself, when in fact as proved, it is not me that does this. I must
detach myself from the process first. Just let go, make it flow.

I haven't yet tested this thoroughly but I will. So it is not about controlling the thought process, like I stated in my previous post. It is wrong. If you are trying to control it, you are it. As the mind and its content are functionally identical. Don't identify with the thoughts by not thinking.

Second thing I learned is: my mind really is my enemy.All thoughts, ideas, images that come to my head are false and steer me away from my goal. I have come to the conclusion that all thought is a society virus implanted in the head. It takes courage and patience to cure yourself out of this.
This is why being really mad at this voice works. Like I did a couple months ago. I shouted SHUT UP! at myself. I was furious about some of my thoughts. Now they are just a memory. I must do the same with approach thoughts. They are fucking me up.

So how do I approach?

Wu.

Do it without doing it.

Or in other words, BE COOL ABOUT IT.

Administer your body, how you move, how you are seen. But go to the head only to dismiss all thoughts. Dismiss them as your enemy. Stop being the slave. Own your body and mind. Kill the enemy.

The black hole of need

I came back from a Toastmasters meeting. On the outside I am a master but in the inside I'm a wreck. I realized I am extrmeely needy today. This reflects on my visual presence and people don't approach me. Also it is hard for me to approach them with this. Because it is uncomfortable. I got angry at this feeling and after decided to conquer it.

I'm going to meditate upon the feeling of need. Feel it and let go. This can take a couple hours even. But this method has proven to work.

Neediness is a void. Everything bad comes from it. It sucks your energy and peoples.

SLOW DOWN YOUR THOUGHT PROCESSES.MEDITATE.This is the only way to realize neediness and fight it realtime.

FIGHT IT!

FIGHT IT!

Give a second thought! Control the thought process! FIGHT IT!

Almost approached a girl in the bus with this:
Consider approaching, feel it.Imagine becoming better after, feel it.Stop thinking and just do it (dehypnotize yourself and move your body).

Break

I haven't been writing or doing anything. After a recent failure after going out I just had to let go. My brain must process everything again without me interfering all the time.

Bio-survival circuit

Re-thinking:
"What do I want most, approach or feel comfortable?"
Decide from the heart. Or as I see it, it is a place behind the throught. The beginning of the spine. That is the true emotional center in my oppinion. That place tells you what you want most.

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Bah! So simple:
PJE:"Step 1: Choose what you want most. Step 2: Find a way to get it!
Most importantly, do not allow any thoughts of "how" to distract you in step 1. When you're deciding what you want, "how" is completely and utterly irrelevant."

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Watching Apocalypto got me into the bio-survival circuit. In this circuit the only thing that matters is if you can fight the person you meet or not. Nothing can hurt you in this circuit. Only physical harm is real. Words don't matter. Words matter in the emotional circuit, after need is created. Need is created from living in societies. We want something from the other person. That is when we agree that what they tell us is true. If you get rid of the need or don't have any at all, revert to the bio-survival circuit. If you are strong and big enough you will be king of the world.No thought can enter the mind which is true. The rational circuit ceases to exist. It is only used to communicate ideas, like I am doing now. The rational circuit cannot find any proof against you. It is a harmless servant. There is no need when you know you can just get it. You just see how to get it and there is no fear. If there is risk of not getting it you just accept that you can lose it. You won't think twice if you lose it. There is no need. The king only wants order. There is nothing he needs for himself, he is satisfied. He has wisdom and knows life. He knows when he can gain and when he can lose. He accepts loss aswell as gains. It is all the same in the face of no-need.

The default NO

I got sick and tired of not being able to approach. I've got so much inner game stuff complete. I've reached enlightenment like 10 times now. But it isn't really helping this one thing. There just isn't any neurology inside of me to DO IT. I have to create it. I dedicated this whole week to thinking only about this problem. This is my new way of solving things. I just focus all my thoughts on this. So far 3 nights I've been pondering about this.
There is still "the default no". It is a distinct feeling in my throat.Today I was asking this part what does it want. The answer I got was "peace". And it hit me. I just want to be comfortable. Approaching somebody means literally chaos. Random feelings, thoughts, possible new adventures and problems. I don't want that. Unless I find a way to be peaceful and still do it I won't approach.
It's all about learning to deal with the emotions and possible pain. I can pump iron with ease although it is painful because I've learnt how to overcome and deal with it. But I never learnt how to deal with emotions that come from approaching a strange girl. That's why it is hard.
The disitinction between something had and easy is just how much neurology there is in your brain to deal with it.

Life with benefits

Killswitch:
"The reason the absolutely hottest girls become lesbians is because the absolutely hottest girls are the only ones that truly see everyone's dick sucking nature, because we live in a time without true war and without a real need for true manhood."
Jiddu Krishnamurti:"Have you ever tried to be without effort? If I understand that all effort is futile, that all effort is a further projection of the mind, of the "I", of the thinker, if I realize the truth of that, what happens? If I see very clearly the label "poison" on a bottle, I leave it alone. There is no effort not to be attracted to it. Similarly - and in this lies the greatest difficulty - , if I realize that any effort on my part is detrimental, if I see the truth of that, then I am free of effort."

NEED IS A PROJECTION OF THE THINKER! WANTING ARISES IN SOME PART OF YOU, NEED IS CREATED WHEN YOU IDENTIFY WITH THAT WANTING!

For example the penis wants to fuck. Need comes when YOU think that it is YOU that wants to fuck! Simple.

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I finally understood what PJE meant by "choose what matters most".It's about the benefit. BEcause only benefit counts in life. The cost is not important. The rational mind does costs.So if you want anything in life you can't mind having it.What does that mean? Don't rationalize it, don't analyze the costs. Just choose it as the benefit for yourself.

Biological mutation

I have finally broke through. The last piece of th puzzle has been set. This is the end of one road and a beginning of something new. I have been transformed. Biologically.I don't post here recently cause I write a lot of stuff on mASF. The posts there are a chronical to what I am up to now.

No such thing as unselfishness

"The universe is so constructed as to be able to see itself,"

Spencer Brown once noted.

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There is no such thing as unselfishness!
It is not a matter of proving whether people are selfish or not. The question doesn't even arise once you understand your logical brains tendency to divide things, create abstract, dualities, twos, pairs. It is natural for the brain make not-statements. Selfish, not-selfish. But it is entirely illusional. It is abstract. In reality there is no such thing as not-selfish. It is just the brain creting a concept to dwell upon. So notice when your brain creates abstracts. Notice the language you use. Unselfish is such a void term that it was derived from the word selfish.

Madness

I nearly slipped the edge of sanity today. I now understand why occult stuff is so dangerous. Or why you have to open up all your chakras in specific order. I thought I was prepared for it. I think it has to do with my stuff about Introduction to the Mind at Work. It is so powerful this what I have discovered. I nearly totally lost it today. Jekyll brought me back, I started reading his articles on madness. Thank goodness. I'm back in reality now.

I think I would not have realized this if not a series of events that lead me to stay at home eventually. As if a guide was preventing me from leaving the house. I got a nose bleed early in the morning so I got later than I wanted to. Then when I was about to leave the house for a bus I got the bleeding again. Later I left the house 2 minutes too late, cause I had to reply to a post. Whatever I think of this, I might take a note that it was synchronicity.

Some interesting thoughts:
The other night I was dreaming about this archetypal girl. She looked like Larry David's wife in Curb Your Enthusiasm. I remember Larry said the actress "just knew how to take care of him". That is exactly the archetype that was dominating in that dream. It was that girl. The girl that just... knows me. Today while delusioned, I had visions of this anima. A naked girl would come to me and take me by hand and lead. I realized this has been my dream all my life. It is probably one of the main reasons why I never did anything about girls, because this vision was so dominating. I dream that a girl will just come to me and know what to do about me. That she'll just silently take my hand and lead me. If a girl like that appeared in reality I swear to God I would marry her. That is the woman of my dreams. But I can't think about this any more. It's a pathway to madness.

Throat by Ijji

MY goal:
I will get used to the relaxed arch posture and will focus on opening fully my throat chakra.I will catch myself whenever I'm not doing this when talking or not talking while amongst people.Whenever I'm walking alone I will practice humming through my open throat.

Simple

Whatever feels good for me, is good for the mating process.

I failed to realize this because all my life I have been thinking how to please others. This is the way people with high EQ work. They just follow their good feelings.