Bio-survival circuit

Re-thinking:
"What do I want most, approach or feel comfortable?"
Decide from the heart. Or as I see it, it is a place behind the throught. The beginning of the spine. That is the true emotional center in my oppinion. That place tells you what you want most.

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Bah! So simple:
PJE:"Step 1: Choose what you want most. Step 2: Find a way to get it!
Most importantly, do not allow any thoughts of "how" to distract you in step 1. When you're deciding what you want, "how" is completely and utterly irrelevant."

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Watching Apocalypto got me into the bio-survival circuit. In this circuit the only thing that matters is if you can fight the person you meet or not. Nothing can hurt you in this circuit. Only physical harm is real. Words don't matter. Words matter in the emotional circuit, after need is created. Need is created from living in societies. We want something from the other person. That is when we agree that what they tell us is true. If you get rid of the need or don't have any at all, revert to the bio-survival circuit. If you are strong and big enough you will be king of the world.No thought can enter the mind which is true. The rational circuit ceases to exist. It is only used to communicate ideas, like I am doing now. The rational circuit cannot find any proof against you. It is a harmless servant. There is no need when you know you can just get it. You just see how to get it and there is no fear. If there is risk of not getting it you just accept that you can lose it. You won't think twice if you lose it. There is no need. The king only wants order. There is nothing he needs for himself, he is satisfied. He has wisdom and knows life. He knows when he can gain and when he can lose. He accepts loss aswell as gains. It is all the same in the face of no-need.

The default NO

I got sick and tired of not being able to approach. I've got so much inner game stuff complete. I've reached enlightenment like 10 times now. But it isn't really helping this one thing. There just isn't any neurology inside of me to DO IT. I have to create it. I dedicated this whole week to thinking only about this problem. This is my new way of solving things. I just focus all my thoughts on this. So far 3 nights I've been pondering about this.
There is still "the default no". It is a distinct feeling in my throat.Today I was asking this part what does it want. The answer I got was "peace". And it hit me. I just want to be comfortable. Approaching somebody means literally chaos. Random feelings, thoughts, possible new adventures and problems. I don't want that. Unless I find a way to be peaceful and still do it I won't approach.
It's all about learning to deal with the emotions and possible pain. I can pump iron with ease although it is painful because I've learnt how to overcome and deal with it. But I never learnt how to deal with emotions that come from approaching a strange girl. That's why it is hard.
The disitinction between something had and easy is just how much neurology there is in your brain to deal with it.

Life with benefits

Killswitch:
"The reason the absolutely hottest girls become lesbians is because the absolutely hottest girls are the only ones that truly see everyone's dick sucking nature, because we live in a time without true war and without a real need for true manhood."
Jiddu Krishnamurti:"Have you ever tried to be without effort? If I understand that all effort is futile, that all effort is a further projection of the mind, of the "I", of the thinker, if I realize the truth of that, what happens? If I see very clearly the label "poison" on a bottle, I leave it alone. There is no effort not to be attracted to it. Similarly - and in this lies the greatest difficulty - , if I realize that any effort on my part is detrimental, if I see the truth of that, then I am free of effort."

NEED IS A PROJECTION OF THE THINKER! WANTING ARISES IN SOME PART OF YOU, NEED IS CREATED WHEN YOU IDENTIFY WITH THAT WANTING!

For example the penis wants to fuck. Need comes when YOU think that it is YOU that wants to fuck! Simple.

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I finally understood what PJE meant by "choose what matters most".It's about the benefit. BEcause only benefit counts in life. The cost is not important. The rational mind does costs.So if you want anything in life you can't mind having it.What does that mean? Don't rationalize it, don't analyze the costs. Just choose it as the benefit for yourself.

Biological mutation

I have finally broke through. The last piece of th puzzle has been set. This is the end of one road and a beginning of something new. I have been transformed. Biologically.I don't post here recently cause I write a lot of stuff on mASF. The posts there are a chronical to what I am up to now.

No such thing as unselfishness

"The universe is so constructed as to be able to see itself,"

Spencer Brown once noted.

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There is no such thing as unselfishness!
It is not a matter of proving whether people are selfish or not. The question doesn't even arise once you understand your logical brains tendency to divide things, create abstract, dualities, twos, pairs. It is natural for the brain make not-statements. Selfish, not-selfish. But it is entirely illusional. It is abstract. In reality there is no such thing as not-selfish. It is just the brain creting a concept to dwell upon. So notice when your brain creates abstracts. Notice the language you use. Unselfish is such a void term that it was derived from the word selfish.

Madness

I nearly slipped the edge of sanity today. I now understand why occult stuff is so dangerous. Or why you have to open up all your chakras in specific order. I thought I was prepared for it. I think it has to do with my stuff about Introduction to the Mind at Work. It is so powerful this what I have discovered. I nearly totally lost it today. Jekyll brought me back, I started reading his articles on madness. Thank goodness. I'm back in reality now.

I think I would not have realized this if not a series of events that lead me to stay at home eventually. As if a guide was preventing me from leaving the house. I got a nose bleed early in the morning so I got later than I wanted to. Then when I was about to leave the house for a bus I got the bleeding again. Later I left the house 2 minutes too late, cause I had to reply to a post. Whatever I think of this, I might take a note that it was synchronicity.

Some interesting thoughts:
The other night I was dreaming about this archetypal girl. She looked like Larry David's wife in Curb Your Enthusiasm. I remember Larry said the actress "just knew how to take care of him". That is exactly the archetype that was dominating in that dream. It was that girl. The girl that just... knows me. Today while delusioned, I had visions of this anima. A naked girl would come to me and take me by hand and lead. I realized this has been my dream all my life. It is probably one of the main reasons why I never did anything about girls, because this vision was so dominating. I dream that a girl will just come to me and know what to do about me. That she'll just silently take my hand and lead me. If a girl like that appeared in reality I swear to God I would marry her. That is the woman of my dreams. But I can't think about this any more. It's a pathway to madness.

Throat by Ijji

MY goal:
I will get used to the relaxed arch posture and will focus on opening fully my throat chakra.I will catch myself whenever I'm not doing this when talking or not talking while amongst people.Whenever I'm walking alone I will practice humming through my open throat.

Simple

Whatever feels good for me, is good for the mating process.

I failed to realize this because all my life I have been thinking how to please others. This is the way people with high EQ work. They just follow their good feelings.

Transformation

After writing the last post I went and deeply investigated what ACCEPTING and IDENTIFYING means. I used my recent knowledge of the shifting consciousness and really identified with the problem. I imagine apporaching a girl, I identified with the voice. This time I think I really did it good. I feel I got rid of the "default no".

I had some major dreams last night. One dream after another with sexual themes. Me interacting with sexy girls. It feels great. I remember I was going this kind of transformation last year. Dreams are a sign that other parts of you are being integrated in what you want and know.

I saw nice blonde girl through the window today. I thought I was gonna jump out and grab her. Never felt like this, as if I was not thinking, just an animal living there in me. No. I AM THAT ANIMAL.

It's all you

Powerful need destroyer:

Rich dad, poor dad:
"If I could leave one single idea with you, it is that idea. Whenever
you feel "short" or in "need" of something, give what you want first and
it will come back in buckets. That is true for money, a smile, love,
friendship. I know it is often the last thing a person may want to do,
but; it has always worked for me. I just trust that the principle of
reciprocity it is true, and I give what I want. I want money, so I give
money, and it comes back in multiples. I want sales, so I help someone
else sell something, and sales come to me. I want contacts and I help
someone else get contacts, and like magic, contacts come to me. I heard
a saying years ago that went, "God does not need to receive, but humans
need to give.""

Actually yesterday I discovered a very fun way of thinking:When I look at a girl I say to myself:
"I wonder what makes her laugh?"

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Core Transformation method:

"1) You identify a behavior/feeling/response you want to change
2) You find a 'part' of yourself that is responsible for the
behavior/feeling/response
3) You recognize that the part actually has a positive purpose and
ultimately wants to do you good or protect you
4) You make peace with the part and become friends with it
5) You uncover the part's purpose, probably after passing through
several layers of intent - you get to the 'core'
6) You ask the part to keep its purpose (which is positive) and change
the behavior/feeling/response associated with it, reaching the same
results by another, more ecological behavior/feeling/response
7) After the procedure things will begin to change, even though you may
not be immediately aware or it - your unconscious mind may not provide
you with that knowledge

PJE:
"So this is where the common self-help idea comes from, that "until you
accept your faults, you can't change them." It's not because there's
some mystical power in acceptance, but because not accepting who you are
cuts you off from critical information you need to create effective
change. It divides your mind in an unhealthy way, since you now have a
"weak" or "evil" you that has been assigned the task of obtaining your
secret desires, while you disavow any knowledge or control of its
activities.""

"And so, this is how you create the experience of inner conflict, and of
feeling compelled to do things that you "don't want to". Trust me, if
you're doing it, it's because you want to! All that's happening is that
you've redefined "you" so it doesn't include the stuff you don't want to
admit you want."

How to get things done:

""Start with a single action.... Follow the spread of your effort, obey
it, but don't become involved in it. Use your abilities with perspective
and detachment. Don't identify yourself with your task.""
All knowledge is flowing into me, that the meaninf of just doing it is,
not getting involved in the mental images presented to you. Accepting
all thoughts and letting them go.

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What PJE wrote me a long time ago:

""""Am I close to your concept of the internal sysadmin?"""
Yes. A big part of contacting the sysadmin has to do with changing what
parts of your mind, body, and behavior constitute your "self". That is,
where you put your attention, and what you identify with.
When you "just did it", you removed your self-identification from the
administrative aspect and identified with the *experience* instead; this
is the formula for truly committed and focused action.
There is quite a lot that you can do by changing the scope, degree, and
target of your self-identification, as it is the essence of these
magics. Contact with the sysadmin is able to occur when you can include
the unconscious mind in your self-identification, and thereby achieve
*empathy with yourself*."

It's been nearly a year and just now I know what he was talking about.
I've been ongoing a similar change like the sysadmin PJE writes about.
This happens when you get a "wider" sense of identification. When you
identify with MORE of yourself. This seems silly, and I couldn't explain
it to somebody like me a year ago. I realized that there is a part of me
that is judging... me. So I took control of that part and asked "why
would I do that?". This sparks a process of change, because you start
controlling that part.

I guess my goal now will be to incorporate as much of myself into the
identification of myself. Do this by any means necessary.

"the more powerful the metaphor, the more powerful the interface"

I now even more understand how stupid microimanagment of yourself is. When you're micromanaging, you really haven't established rapport with the subconscious. Identify with it. It's all you.

Crown chakra

I went out and I think for 80% of the day I was focusing on the crown of
my head. Tapping into this source. I went out with the intention to do
20 hi's to girls. I did 0. I meditated on this problem for nearly an
hour. I was resolving chakras the whole time. What I realized is that I
don't have to say it, I might as well look at the girl and get into the
state of mind as if I was going to sy Hi. And this was nearly equally
hard. But I managed to do it. And it really is tricky, I see now that it
doesn't matter if I say the Hi. The thing that matters is what is going
inside my head. My head must be crystal clear. Because saying Hi to a
girl must be as easy as farting.

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To-Do:
Prometheus Rising:
"1. If all you can know is your own brain programs operating,the whole universe you experience is inside your head. Try tohold onto that model for at least an hour. Note how often yourelapse into feeling the universe as outside you."

The meta-programmer

I've had one of the most profound realizations ever yesterday. I was reading Prometheus Rising, the chapter about meta-programming. It all just fell into place. I realized what I am, what my brain is, what self and why I won't ever really know what I AM.

Just pinpointing for remembering:
- consciousness shifts from one brain circuit to another, it is not fixed, it is a plastic form which blends into different part of the brain/body.
- brain circuits are somehow connected to chakras
- focusing on a chakras makes you go into the brain circuit (this is how you solve problems or go into a higher state of being, forehead chakra).
By going I mean the mirror of the brain shifts to focus on that part of the brain. That mirror is you. When you look into that part, the brain can fix itself. Exactly as PJE described months ago. Consciousness is like a flashlight in a dark attic. It is a tool of the brain to perform surgery on itself. I've been walking in the clouds for the whole day. This is really ground-breaking. And focusing on the chakras fucken works!!!