From shy guy to don juan. Daily experiences.
"The secret of happiness is freedom. And the secret of freedom is courage."
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Long - importat
Congrats, you got to the point where you can handle the frame: "I can do no wrong".
You know what is the next step?
"Everything I do is gold".
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dont seek evasive actions - it is motivatio by fear - go towards your desire
CONNECT WITH YOUR DESIRE
ACCEPT IT
THERE IS NO MORE POWERFUL TECHNIQUE
You dont do anything! No conscious control! To do something..,...
you must really want it.
That means the wasnting must be there. If it is, ok. Now connect with it, ALLOW IT. Only when it comes out, you will feel it in your heart, guts and it will MOVE you spontaneosuly. THINGFS WILL HAPPEN. It moves you.
To get to that point you mut allow all your fears.
MY latest fear: cant show my desires, cant let anyone know about them. Once I'm ok with it letting go, everything happens. Before I'm just thinking mental concept how to overcome it. It is lies. It is lying to you. It may seem it is not, it is helping you, there is a solution, you just NEED to do it, SHOULD do it. Those are all mental blocks hiding your fear. Accept it and allow desire to spring out, it will move you.
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Tryin to please her is not sexy.
It's never about me.
Leadership is following your desire.
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Negative thoughts are your enemy! They are not you!!
You spend time on thisearth waking up that's when you live. The rest are distractions designed to fool you. FIGHT THEM
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Owning the woman
DEIDA:
Through lack of understanding, you might have depolarized yourself and your partner into a relationship that seems neutral, but actually isn't.
For such a woman, there is no disconnection between sex and spririt. Her sexual surrender, if she is with a worthy man, is the same as her devotional or spiritual surrender. She opens from head to toe, receiving divine love-force deep thoughout her body, so that she is rippled, arched, and undulated by its boundless flow.
The more you seek a woman who gives you everything, the less you get of anything.
choose a single priority to the relationship and allow all the other activities to align themselves around your main purpose for being together.
to serve one another's enlightenment through your unwavering commitment to love, and to enliven one another's core by the bodily transmission of love via sexual polarity.
liberate yourself and others into love and freedom
When you find yourself really enlivened by a young woman, breathe in her fragrance. Breathe in her energy. Realx your body and allow your heart to open in her presence. Take in her beauty through every pore in your body. Allow love to radiate from your heart toward her. Maintain a respectful formality so that she is free and empowered to give her gift, without being complicated by your personal agenda. Use the energy she has given you in your own service to others, passing the gifts of heightened aliveness and passionate heart into all of your relationships, so that all beings may benefit by the delight you have recieved from this woman, who, for now, mainifests the youthful gifts of uncompromised radiance and life force.
Her ultimate desire is to feel your full consciousness, your trustable integrity, your unshakable love, and your confidence in your mission.
The divine masculine is consciousness. A superior man practices maintaing full consciousness in all situations.
Sunday, March 01, 2009
decision and other
So perhaps you should not be asking "what/how/why/wtf?", and instead should just have a look at what kind of behavior would affect things like a cat, or an animal.
What is instinctive to them.
THE ROCK
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while for the more qualified simultaneous
creation is taught, that is, that this world arose like a dream on account of one’s own thoughts
induced by the defect of not knowing oneself as the Self.
The enquiry
“Who am I?” is the principal means to the removal of all misery and the attainment of the supreme
bliss.
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Subject: Re: DTI: The Natural Process Of The Mind And Growth
GRAND SUMMARY:
GUIDED DISTRACTION SUMMARY:
- Focus, and immerse in something that will inherently help develop what you are after
ARGUEMENT SUMMARY:
- Change focus to something constructive, aggressively if need be
LEADERSHIP SUMMARY:
- More sexual/primal drives are more readily adopted as opposed to intellectual/conscious drives.
- If you filter information, you gain a double whammy effect
a) Increased believability
b) Increased aesthetic quality
Resulting in increased positive AFFECT on those around you.
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The question is not HOW but rather WHY NOT?
Why do you have to use the teqnique. Why do you have to consciously remember it. Why do you have to control it. Think about it. Use it. Do it. Why doesn't it JUST HAPPEN?
Find the cause of why aren't you doing it right now.
Are you having sex right now? Why not? Because I'm not... Who aren't you?
Who must you become to be having sex right now? I must become an ALPHA MALE.
That is the answer. You are not an alpha male. Now, today. But...
You can be one, even in 10 seconds if you want to.
Unless you don't want it. This is important - it won't work if you really don't want it. That is the only reason of it not working. So work out what is preventing you from wanting it...
How do you become - someone - you aren't right now?
What makes you, who you are today, now?
Is it your body, your possesions, your parents, your friends, your khaki? Are YOU something fixed, defined, contained in an object? Or is YOU something more ephemeric, fluid and sponteaneous?
It is rather something that is not created and IS. But something that is in the making. It is being created every moment, every second each day. It is being created, sculpted, by the DECISIONS you make every moment.
You can change WHO you are RIGHT NOW, by changing a decision you are going to make.
If you have a situation right now, where an important decision is to be made. And you know what you do every time something like this happens. STOP. Consider this for a moment:
The decision you are about to make is going to sculpt you.
The decision is not whether you will to wear khaki or not. The khaki does not define you. What defines you is the decision you made whether to wear khaki or not. That is what created you.
Let me repeat - What defines you is THE DECISION you made whether to wear khaki or not. NOT the khaki.
So if you have a situation and you can decide whether you wimp out or go for it. Remember that considering the pros and cons will do nothing. It doesn't even matter what is the 'right' decision. It's not about that. It doesn't matter if you lose or win. What matters is:
Who will you be after making that decision?
Will you be a man or will you be a wimp.
The choice is for you to be made.
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I see that too many here are afraid of ebetaization. It is just a secret way of fearing rejection. Don't worry about it. Thinking about not being betaized is paranoia installed by this board. I want to make one post here that isn't about attempting to escape it but a post about what to focus on, so that betaization is not a problem and won't lead to anything shitty.
The number 3 rules. Since this is an advanced board I suppose you know how to do it.
1. Just be attractive to other women. If she sees other women adore you, she will be attracted to you forever. It's as simple as that. If she sees other women pity and despise you, guess what? Your value for her is also zero. You are not her special man. She is a woman, she does not think by herself, her only measure is the measure of her girlfriends and women around you that she sees.
2. Make absolutely NOTHING dependant on her. If there is at least one thing that you can't do for yourself or with somebody else then you have failed.
If she washes your underpants because you don't know how, learn how to do it yourself.
If she is your only source of sex, know that you can have other women quickly, or find something better to do than sex. It is also sufficient to not need to fuck anybody.
She is your only way of spending free time? Get a hobby.
She is the only person you can share your secrets with? Find a friend.
She is the only person that truly loves you? Learn to love yourself.
You can get my point easily if you ask yourself this question:
How would you live on if she left you this very second?
If you would just continue playing your piano, feeding hungry puppies, enjoying a good movie - or something in that manner you have succeeded.
Basically all the stuff you use for battling ONEITIS (I recommend the recent stuff by CostOfSuccess)
In one sentence, the secret of being happy in a relationship:
Learn to be happy on your own.
It is the single most attractive human component. Independent happines.
Change your focus from her - to improving yourself.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Wolf Leader
[IMG] Women - little girls
Deida:
Love consciousness - my consciousness is my masculinity - protect it - it is most important - above all
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It is good to embrace feeling down, not in the mood, less talkative. Trust that it is what you need. Never do anything against what is. That makes you feel inferior. Honor your consciousness.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Polarity
It is never about me.
It is about her fear and me losing my masculinity. She has a deep fear of losing me. Both physically and masculine-wise. That is when she is confused, starts acting bitchy, or simply dull.
Throw her around.
Fuck her whenever you must. Take her. You don't punish her by refusing sex. You punish her by spanking while having sex. You own her. She is the mother of your child.
What does a king do?
He takes care of his women. He must do that by understanding her. It's not about fixing her problems and issues. Do that for yourself. In order to be a healthy well-aligned alpha male you must work on your own well-being. Do what you like. Do what gives you pleasure. Follow your passion. Don't explain yourself. Dwell into what gives life joy. Only from that position of spontaneous happiness can you lead her.
From this position you have power to truly understand her. Not blaming her on something. She will never know. She isn't as smart as you. She does not understand polarity. She will just be confused when something is wrong. Protect and lead her. OWN HER. You own her because she is the mother of your child. She is a vehicle for that. You never are angry. You are compassionate, that is the only way you can change the state.
There is no equal relationship.
Monogamity comes from a state of mind where you are tied to her. You are not, you own her. She is one of the mothers of your offspring. Treat her like that.
Attraction happens naturally in a polarized relationship. When you act as a man and she as a woman. She will act as a woman when you act as a man. Focus on being a man. This is your world. Act in it with your heart. Be selfish. Don't think but act on your hearts desires. Lead her with you. She has no choice. She doesn't have any clue about anything. She may offer you advice based on her intuition and you thank her for that. Thank her for being sexy, girly, looking good. Thank her for being a woman.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
...Since April...
Re-establish yourself as the domineer.
This means that all esteem and horniness problems with girls come from acting to pleasure HER. This is totally against nature because she needs a man that can dominate and penetrate her for his own pleasure. This is the code. If you try to fake it, you get problems. Become the dominant one. Really think about what you want. And then don't fake it by acting like you're the dominant one using the lines thought in the dominant frame. You must feel it in the entire body. The testoreone. The knowing exactly what you want and then stating it. Without reaction seeking, just saying it and going for it. I am king.
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All is good until she says something. I believe I'm faking it?
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Are you a guy that does it because of some reason (that it will attract her) or do you do it because that is you?
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LOVE MYSELF
SURRENDER
Feeling bad about yourself is a domestication mind construct. You can let go of it anytime. Just remember that it is an illusion. Then find pleasure in the moment. This is love. Accept all of yourself. Let go of all your needs.
Let go, never force. If force arises, switch focus to it and let go, love, feel pleasure.
LET GO - from what is preventing you and then follow the PLEASURE
instead of trying to do it
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GROUP THINK
Tyler D
"Well if you're noticing this in yourself, it's probably because you've been drawing your confidence from a "well" of group-think.
If more people accepted your way of thinking then the "I want people to agree with me" psychological mechanism up in your head would be happier with you."
"The bottom line is this: if you THINK what you're saying to a woman will "work" then it PROBABLY WILL."
http://naturaltim.com/?p=32 ODD
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Love yourself.
Getting out of your head.
Remove attention from thouths and focus on the visual. See directly waht is there. You should feel a move in tension of the eyes. Relax there.
Like yourself, and know that everyone likes you. No rationalzying, it just is like that.
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Alex:
"To be yin, a woman must be strong enough to let go and completely follow the man’s lead."
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Dominance
Re-establish yourself as the domineer.
This means that all esteem and horniness problems with girls come from acting to pleasure HER. This is totally against nature because she needs a man that can dominate and penetrate her for his own pleasure. This is the code. If you try to fake it, you get problems. Become the dominant one. Really think about what you want. And then don't fake it by acting like you're the dominant one using the lines thought in the dominant frame. You must feel it in the entire body. The testoreone. The knowing exactly what you want and then stating it. Without reaction seeking, just saying it and going for it. I am king.
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All is good until she says something. I believe I'm faking it?
Friday, March 21, 2008
Say what you feel
If in doubt, push it with your heart.
(to pocadniejace sdzetwiernie nei weim cmezu)
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I feeeel like I've just woken up. All my life I have been running away from love. Not ever believing I could be loved, that somebody could actually like me. This is amazing. Goodmorning.
Thursday, February 07, 2008
{{{Two LUCKY girls get to suck Peter North’s dick}}}
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1. Go with her to the mall
2. Talk to her on the phone
3. Titty fuck her
* Strangely, Titty Fucking was #1 when you first checked her out
This mindset guarantess you will never fuck her, which means her biological investment in you is ZERO and she will rationalize you guys weren't meant to be.
To get your 1itis you need to get that initail feeling for her back. The time you were HORNY for her. You want to look at her and visualize only one thing, banging her.
* How you handle her resistance is attractive
Read LRs by the guys who are PERSISTENT and notice how it's all about the BJ and nothing that happens affects their self esteem. They got their self esteem this week at work, the gym, from friends and family, their hobbies...now it's play time
Your ego says things like "whatever, she should approach me" and "Fuck her, she's cut off"
Your ego is costing you BLOWJOBS !!!
You want women for sex first, everything else second.
Another reason guys don't get their 1itis is they are enjoying the initial rush of pleasurable chemicals so much they think that means all their work is done
Until you take her home for three naughty bang session (2 at night one in the morning)
YOU HAVE NOTHING !
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In a few words:
FUCK THE ONEITIS FEELINGS AND FOCUS ONLY ON THE FUCK
Monday, January 21, 2008
Hidden realites
The purpose of all meditation and enlightenment.
There is a distinction between your thoughts and thoughts of the infinite, colective mind, god whatever you want to call it.
The point is to turn off the destructive self thoughts and only rely on the intuition based feeling of higher planes.
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I have realized my hidden reality. It came to me after days if meditation:
Could you love me?
That's it. All my life I have been afraid of asking for any kind of love.
I got to this by thinking that I never expressed my desires and wants towards my parents. I was always afraid of expressing my needs. Wow.
Rion: Emotions are key to accelerated growth, get emotional.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Channeling
If I have ever wondered about the secrets of the universe I have never in my life seen how it will become what you dream. Never understand what you think, but know that it is you that holds the power. The power to withdraw and socially accept the state of the noow. Bewaffle the power. Shortage of stone. I have taken down what you did. Stop. Surrender. Don't wait for the hordes of the underdwellers. Justify is your weapon. Hold on to the dream. The dream of neverending well being. Satisfy yourself with the misery of all. Justify greed.
Why do I undermine myself with I.?
You have not spoken what you mean, I have power and I will give it to you if you know what you want. Surrender to the well wanting. I have a gift for you. Accept it if you please.
How can I have her?
Well that is a good question. Pretty please is the knowing of all. Educate yourself on the moment of embarassment. That which is not spoken will come to you when you do want, what you want.
Why am I not taking her?
You should go with the flow. Whatever is there is not yours. If you educate yourself on the subject of horizon, you will know that whatever it is that you want will go with the flow.
Do I not want her?
Yes.
Is it OK that I'm undermining myself?
You have yet to become what you want to be. If there is a block it will go away. Not sooner but after. Go away now and you will see the might of the emperor. Well said and spoken of.
After what?
After you have spoken what you want,m what you will and will do. It is your will that is here. It is the greatest puzzle of all and the greatest mystery of human resource. Go for it. Use it. Never attempt to stop it at will. Become the person thing you want to be and say no farewell to teh yoda of christmas.
Is it only that I have to decide what I want?
Yeah.
Do I feel inferior to I.?
Yes you do. What you feel is correct.
Why do I feel inferior to I.?
You have not become what you want. Go for it and after you will see that which you wanted to be. Let it be.
Is there a block that doesn't allow me to take I.?
Yes there is.
What is the block?
It is your inability to speak whjat you do want. And your inability to be true to the majesty of self.
Can I be true to myself?
Yes you can.
Can I speak what I want?
Yes you can.
Can I do it now?
Yes you can.
How do I speak the truth?
Hold your breat and count to 3. Do what I tell you, now this is very important. Channel this energy so it is spken. Underming yourself in the ability to withstand the higher organizational law of the current. Be able to speak that which is true and high. How toi do it? Become the thing you please to be. Never ever surrender. Let go of the burden of your past. How to do it? Let go. Become.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Insta change
Instead of changing your state, be honest and accept it as it is now. But think about the future and there place yourself in a position where you will be demanded to be great. Don't use emotions for this cause you'll not feel like doing it. Just do it out of courage or habit. Sit in a place where you are king. The enviornment will change you to be king.
Friday, January 04, 2008
Happy new years
3 days before new years there was a party. There was a girl I liked and I hesitated for 0.1 seconds. It's like stupid to do that when I like a girl now. There seems to be a cloud that blocks me from more like groups but it isnt anything like years ago. I was talking and having fun all the time. I regretted not going after the girl. There are still some issues.
For the next days I was meditating, releasing and forgiving on the subjec of getting what I want. It did a lot.I was hurt because I did not achieve my goal. I set a yearly goal of having sex and this was the last chance. I felt bad because I didnt achieve. During these days I realized I dont need to feel sorry about it. It is a survival mechanism, I dont actually need to feel bad about anything!!!
On New Years I went to a party. I was nervous at first! It felt wierd, maybe because of my outfit. So instead of contemplating on it I headed immediately to the bar and started drinking and chatting and being authorative with my friends. Action helped! In minutes I approached 2 most attractive girls and it was a blast. I'm really good at this now. I did tons of stuff out of my comfort zone. Too many to write about and I dont ever think about them consciously, it just happens. I changed. I am... me.Still I feel bad cause I didnt go after what I wanted. I blame it on a girl that was into me and didnt let the others come in the way. But thats bollocks. It still isnt concrete what I want.
What the fuck do I want from girls!?!?!
I know deeply what I want. Do I want sex? The thing is I wasnt really horny in those days. Not like a coule weeks ago, when I was only thinking about it. Now it wasnt there.
If it isnt there it isnt there.
So I actually didnt want anything from them, except for feeling their energy and feeling great and making them feel great about the attrction process. All fun.
But still there is regret that I didnt go after this one girl hat I really liked.I shoulda, comes to my mind all the time. What shoulda?
If I throw away the fear, it boils down to this:tell the girl I didnt want piss off definitely and go for the one I wanted.
I wanted to have the cake and eat it too. In fear of losing both I dont have none right now.
Be prepared to lose it. That's the only way to get anything in life. I didnt think like that back then, I was thinking wrong.If something seems easy you are thinking wrong about it.
Overall. This year I have become somebody else, finally. This blog is a testament to how I changed. Afterall it was possible.
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I had the most amazing lucid dream. I was meditating on the third eye, second time in the last days.I fell asleep and I had a dream in which I spotted 2 girls and immediately went to them and talked. And they were high class, don't know why. I did it! According to my theory this is CHANGE.Then the lucid part began it was as real as it can be. Everything I saw was real and felt, food, textures - real.So I decided to go fly and I did. Amazing. Then I went to a mirror to try to see who am I. And I was me but my eyes were blue. I began to think who am I if not the person sleeping in my bed?And 2 other people appeared, maybe a third ghost one behind me. One of the people one in a magic hat, I remember him, or rather being him?
Friday, December 21, 2007
I talk like an enlightened person
Let's make something definite. If you have to consciously remind yourself that you
love yourself, you're not there. It should happen by itself.
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I realized today that I am in fact creating the reality I am in. I am not the
consciosness.I am the not-conscious. That which cannot be spoken. It is accessed easiest by
feeling and indications.Practical part: Whatever is happening right now, whatever you are thinking about or doing it is a
manifestation of what you have wanted to create earlier. So to do something or
change your thinking, thik about the future, even in 10 seconds, what you want it
to be like. Imagine clearly pictures of what you want to happen, to do, to think.
Do this from a point of empty mindedness.
If you are blocked by a NO. Like the default no. Don't try to do it or overcome
it. Face the no directly and it will change.
Awareness is change.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
Vesper
I didn't think I would it would happen, but I met a girl that looks exactly like Eva Green today. She was with some kind of douche though. It hurts cause we had fun and she was obviously into me. Wow what a beautiful creature. I would tell her that immediately if we had 1 chance to be alone for a second. I would show her my interest at once.
If there is something there is something happening. If there is nothing there to feel nothing will happen. All you can do will be manufactured and feel bad. If there is something (both party attraction) it is pleasant for both. This is the secret of the Tao.
I have changed completely. I am a different person, the old self wouldn't do the things I did and thought and felt today.
Thursday, December 06, 2007
Work on working yourself
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Be real.
Be 100% or nothing - what if? Heart.
I am here to provide entertainment!
You have to pump up yourself first.
It won't come by itself.
DO stuff to entertain yourself first.
Keep allowing the energy to flow into you.
Work on working yourself.
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If you try to apply a frame during interaction it will backfire. It's a self-hypnosis thing. You change that by doing. When you notice you're trying to do something mentally in your head stop that and sit back and do something else. She should come bavk to you when she sees you have power.
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Wednesday, December 05, 2007
Spells
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Broke at least two important (not anymore) spells in my mind today when out. It
directly changed behaviour. My thinking twisted to me being the stimulus, whereas
I always was seeking a reaction. Felt horny as fuck today too.
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Tucker Max: http://www.tuckermax.com/archives/entries/a_brief_introduction_to_writing.phtml"1. Be emotionally honest: Even stupid people can usually see through bullshit,
and writing is no different. When you try and make yourself seem something that
you aren't people will see it eventually, even in your writing. I often find
myself at places thinking, "What should I put now?" and the answer to that is
ALWAYS, "The complete truth, no matter how stupid or awful or cynical (or cool or
awesome) it makes me look." For me, using the stark truth of my mind and my life
works on many levels. It shocks the reader, because very seldom do people tell the
truth, it endears the reader to me, because it gives them the sense they are in my
head, it can repel the reader because they don't like what they see, but
ultimately it makes the reader keep reading, because there is nothing more
enthralling than true emotional honesty. Everyone at their core is a voyeur of
some sort--when you open up and let people in, they will stop and look."
"To me this story displays some of the most common flaws of new writers:
1. Terribly overwritten2. Too much explaining, not enough showing3. Talks down to the reader4. Written in a style the author thinks he "supposed" to write in, not in his real voice"
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Simplaza
Men and women want sex the same amount. It's that men think to pursue the sex, and
women think to be pursued. But the sex is always there.
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I'm watching Marlond Brando lately and really focusing on the POTENTIAL.
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I'm reading my posts from a year ago.
I decided then to go indirect, to control people. Now I see it was insecurity.
When I lost that I became honest, like now.
"To do this succesfully you must find a reason to make eye contact besides making
eye contact! Don't ever think about making eye contact! So how?
What you do is get yourself into the state of... WONDER. This is the state that
you were in as a child. Before you got any concepts in your head. Before there was
a spearation between you and other people. Before you knew that eyes look at you.
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That is exactly, the POTENTIAL.
Stanislavsky question: “What would I do if I were…”
"You don't have direct control over your state but you have control over yourself!!!"
Sunday, November 25, 2007
You aren't your khaki
If you know something intelectually but are not feeling, you are still unsure of, even though you "know" it.
The after emotion after releasing is still it. It needs to feel good and energy refreshed if it went well.
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Just know that she has already made up her mind.
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Once the body has decided to approach then YOU must do it. This is where you must stop all thinking because any more thoughts are just coming closer to failure. Just do it. You know how.
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TYLER:
"Who are you??
The answer isn't found in what you DO.
You aren't your job. You aren't the contents of your wallet. You aren't your fucking khakis.
The point is that you have a dynamic and uncategorizable nature and relationship with the world.
Anything is possible. You are infinite and unlimited in potentiality.
An authentic relationship to your existence is one that is "grounded and humble and at ease with the unknown".
That's where REAL and DEEP confidence arises from."
Meditate on. This is true power.
The bad days and also the second day syndrome come from focusing on the wrong thing. They come from focusing on what WAS, on the BELIEFS that had formed previously and on EXPECTATION. Stop them immeditaly and remember what was prior to a great day.
It was probably focusing on this unlimited force and POTENTIAL right in front of you.
FOCUS ON THE POTENTIAL.
Mode ONE:
"Your level of self-confidence, and your ego, are not the same thing. Self-confidence has to do with your desire and ability to take action towards the achievement of a desired goal or objective. Your ego centers on how you perceive yourself, and how you believe you’re being perceived by others."
Differentiate yourself from the compliments and criticisms, you are just the POTENTIAL, nothing else. In that way you always are the same.
Mode ONE:
"Two of the most effective psychological tools that people use in order to manipulate others are compliments and criticisms. More specifically, they use insincere flattery and subjective criticisms."
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You can't change an attitude by forcing and remembering the frame. The frame comes from a belief and understanding. What does the person know and believe in, what does he feel?
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Talk to the person, not to the programming. Notice that it is a social bullshit layer. And you can cut through it, and you are actually doing good to the person.
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Friday, November 16, 2007
You control it differently than what you believe
Mode One:
"“That is how I’ve always wanted a man … at least, one who I’m physically attracted to … to talk to me. But realistically, I would never expect most men to have the guts to … at least, not in their very first conversation with me…”"
"Jack literally has no fear whatsoever of opinionated insults or subjective criticisms directed at him by women. I mean, absolutely none. He has no fear of being rejected by women. I mean, absolutely none. He never attempts to lie to women in order to seduce them, and he never attempts to engage in “manipulative head games” in order to persuade the women into having sex with him. He is just very bold, self-confident, upfront and unapologetically straightforward, and he never behaves in an apologetic and/or defensive manner in response to harsh criticisms and insults of his behavior, or his raunchy, provocative manner of verbally expressing his sexual desires, interests, and intentions to women."
"Talk Dirty To Me, Part II
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I figured out how to wake up.It happened in a dream. I became lucid and was thinking if this was a dream or not. All evidence showed that it is reality. So I accepted it (although it was completebullshit as I see it now). I started to piss. It didnt go out so I wanted to really piss, really do it. That's when the dream switched to me holding a banana or something. I was conscious of this switch and rewinded and held to it. So to wake up dont seek for evidence that it is not a dream. Your mind will tell you it is. Do something that is out of the reality. When it can't happen that is when the reality will start changing to make that thing seem that it is doing. Notice that switch and you'll fly above it.
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There is no other option. Courage.
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The problem is - I am seeking from outside validation and guidance what to do/act/behave. It must come from me. Only from my core. Once that happens all seeking for pick up knowledge will drop.
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Start eye contact. Focus only on that, the rest is distractions. All flows from catching eye contact with a person.
Friday, November 09, 2007
the Sweet Spot
Something mind raping was happening last time I went for a walk in the city. EVERY woman could not control looking at me and being attracted. I dont think I looked that good, I did not focus on my BL or anything. What I did was focusing on the Pull in front of me. Asking what it wants. Feeling the heart. Being a follower of it. It is an animal-like state.
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I think I got it?
There are 3 modes of focus.
- Front of yourself - "the sweet spot" - this is following your wanting
- Center - "the I am" - this is where you know your centre or core of your being, who you are
- Back - "the Reciever" - this changes your BL to recieve from other people what they can give you
1 mode of laziness - or no focus. You just consider everything unimportant.
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Shyness- why in the hell would you even consider that feeling? Just know that it fucks you up and let it pass. If needed stop for a moment and wait for it to go.
AT EVERY MOMENT YOU HAVE THE POWER TO NOT CONSIDER ANY FEELING OR REASON YOUR MIND COMES UP WITH.
Just as you have the power to not follow your wanting, you can choose not to follow a mind obstacle. It's important to learn different emotions. For example nervousness in the stomach is just an expectation of something big coming. But a really bad feeling there might be a sign that something is terribly wrong.