Day 1

Anthony Robins taught me these breath techniques to give you more energy. Wow. It is better than adrenaline heart injections.

dirtsimple.org:
"our quality of life in interaction with others is going to be governed by your ability to be confident."
"treat yourself with care, and as your "horse" unlearns its fears and learns to trust you"
Teach your brain to trust you and the fear will dissapear.

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Who the fuck is in charge??

I did day 1 of bootcamp although it hasn't started because of Shezzlers delay. I just went out and decided to say Hi to people. Although I did it a couple times some months ago I couldn't spit the word out today. For future reference here are the stages of going out with the intention of doing something like saying Hi:

1. 10-30 minutes - Self-conscious stage
You are inside your head. You are thinking about everything. Especially things that are not really related on what you intend to do like: what am I doing? Maybe I should do something else? I look stupid. What if someone I know sees me? What if people respond to me?
You must focus on not thinking about this stuff. For every negative thought backfire with a positive belief like: It's none of my business what other people think!
It will take time and energy but finally you will become concentrated on the task and all you'll think about is what you want to do. All thoughts now will be task related. This also includes fears of doing the thing which will have to be dealt later.
2. 1-3 hours - Do it stage
You are pumped up now and motivated. You have some chemicals in your body that help you accomplish your task. This is the stage where you should be doing most of your work. Squeeze this time out, you will get physically tired after some hours so use this time. You will have to deal with fear at this stage by simply ignoring it. This is the hard part, but if you are in this stage your body will lead. You must trust it and just do the work. Say: I WANT to do it and go for it.
3. 1-2 hours - The chill stage
You did or did not do your job. It doesn't matter. This is a stage when all the action chemicals get flushed out and you get a feeling of being somehow individuated. The best description of this state is "I don't give a shit about anything". In this stage you do not feel fear. You have no negative thoughts you are really relaxed and confident. You get a really clear picture on what you are doing right and what you are doing wrong. This is a good time to make notes for later. This is also a stage where you are not motivated and simply will not do anything. This is a good state if someone approached you because you would just not care about the outcome of the interaction. But that won't happen so maybe you can find a way yo make approaches at this stage?
Why did I write this? Because knowledge of structure gives several advantages. If you know that there is a self-conscious stage you won't beat yourself over it and quit too early. If you know you will feel fear you will be prepared to deal with it. If you know you will feel somewhat special after the work is done you will feel good about doing the work again and again until you have mastered it.